Thank you to each and every person who has commented, emailed, or silently sent us good thoughts for our IUI. Sadly, the IUI was not successful which was 100% confirmed by my period four days before I even had a chance to pee on a stupid stick.
When we were first told we might have trouble getting pregnant, I wasn't that upset. In retrospect, I realize I reacted that way, because I had no concept of how arduous, painful, and frustrating this process would actually be. I was still in a semi-positive state of mind where I believed my gyno when she said post-surgery, "You're gonna get pregnant right away!"
After 2+ years of varying levels of trying, and almost one year since my surgery, the reality has finally sunk in. This might not happen for us; and that is the scariest thing I have had to admit to myself thus far on this journey. It doesn't mean I'm throwing the towel in, although our finances are thinning. It doesn't mean hope is lost. I'll always have hope. It just means that I am coming to grips with the dark abyss that is long term infertility.
Thank you again to everyone that kept us in your thoughts. Even though we didn't get the results we had hoped for, we are so grateful for the love that surrounds us.